Working 9-5...

Sorry for the lack of blogging. This working really 8-4 business is keeping me busy! I must say the anxiousness leading up to this change was much worse than the actual change itself as it seems is usually the case! The kids are still a little weeping in the morning although Palmer didn't cry at ALL this morning! And actually yelled across the room to me, "Look Mom, I am not crying" this morning... he told me he  just cries cause he needs an extra hug and a kiss! So I made sure to give him plenty and spend a few extra minutes getting him adjusted before rushing off and I think it worked.

Life is busy but good! I actually feel like I get more done working full time cause I don't have the excuse of "I will do it tomorrow since I am off" the laundry is getting done, dishes done, etc... let me just say this is only my 4th day back! haha So we shall see...

I have a lot of exciting things coming up! This weekend is filled with showers for Belle (my soon to be newest niece) and I just can't wait to post pics of everything, I am really excited to have a pink weekend!~

Also my big 3-0 is quickly approaching!! YIKES! I think I am on the 12 day countdown so I have a lot of fun things planned for that. It still hasn't hit me that I am anywhere near 30 though and it scares me just a little! I think I realized this when I was in the baby pool yesterday and Palmer and I were screaming "Marco/Polo" and acting like fools and the other parents were sunbathing around the edge! Or when my husband was playing "bridge" with his legs where he would lift them and let our kids go under the bridge and the next thing you know there was a Congo line of kids going under the "bridge" aka Tex's legs as we got some funny stares from parents! Oh well, I would rather be the fun parents, right? haha

Ann Mason also turned 18 months which ripped my heart in two, I love this stage but I can't believe my baby can be that old! Oh by the way Palmer has requested not one but two brothers but he would like them to be not babies but older, so if you know any willing older "brothers" to come play send them on over! haha

We are busy and in full swing and I should have some fun stuff and pictures soon!!!

First Day of School and Work!

Today was the day! The kids and I started back to school/work full time! I have been saying so many prayers just to remove my anxiety about starting full time and for the kids to really thrive and develop at school. It was a little bumpy this morning which is to be expected, the 6 am alarm was a shock to every one's system :) The kids were pretty sad when I dropped them off to say the least but I think once we all get into a routine things will get a lot better!!

I must say I have the BEST husband. Our time together has been sparse with this recovery process and for the first time in about 2 weeks Palmer slept in his own bed and we FINALLY got some time together to just sit and talk and watch TV and it was SO great! We need that for ourselves and our sanity.

When we went to bed last night a piece of scrapbook paper was laying on my pillow and I tried desperately to scan it in because it was so cute but this is what it said in Tex's handwriting...

Mom, We wanted to let you know that you don't have to worry about us, we are so excited about going back to school. We love learning about new and exciting things. We will watch out for one another so you don't have to worry about us. We love you so much, hope your day is as fun as ours. Love, Ann Mason and Palmer

(with this picture attached)

First Day Back to School

08/18/2010

I just bawled my eyes out, he dressed the kids all up and put on their backpacks and they posed for the camera and then they went to walgreens to print out the picture! I asked Palmer today if this was his first day of school picture and he said, "No, mom dad made us take fake pictures!" I just laughed he is always SO honest!

I have an awesome husband and two beautiful healthy children that I love more than anything in this world and I know this transition will be hard but we can make it thru!!

My sweet, sweet babies had surgery today and they did great! Well, as great as can be expected for tonsillectomies and ear tubes. We got here at 7:00 am and by 8:00 Ann Mason had her "goofy" juice and let me tell you I knew that little one was wild but she was having a ball!! She was giggling and throwing her hands up you couldn't help but laugh... Of course the ever serious Palmer got his "goofy" juice and just kept asking me why he felt funny and was so serious, I love how different they are it cracks me up!

The hardest part was when both of them woke up from anesthesia within 30 minutes of each other. Thanks goodness for Aunt Ashley she was such a life saver today and I am SO grateful for her. Tex and I were running the halls of the hospital trying our best to be with both of our babies and the same time.

Annie came out of anesthesia just fine and wanting food of all things! She is a fighter and a pistol and other than being fussy this little fireball has been great! She gets upset when her meds wear off but who wouldn't. I am so proud of her!! She is so strong and independent even at 17 months, I love it ( I know I probably won't when she is 15! ha!)

This guy on the other hand takes after his mom in almost every way including throwing up profusely after coming out of anesthesia. We finally got some phenegran in him and some ice cream and were able to get his first dose of Tylenol with codeine down about 6 tonight!!!

I came back to the hospital after getting Palmer settled to spend the night with Ann Mason, I have to admit this makes me anxious. I am sitting here in the hospital room and Ann Mason is sleeping and I am uneasy. I don't like being here but I am SO thankful that it is just for one night and that my kids are healthy and that we are blessed with good health for today. My mind wonders to all of the kids that don't get to go home tomorrow or for a long time and I just can't imagine.... I know I will say an extra prayer tonight for the kids and parents that this hospital has become their second home and they don't have the luxury of a surgery and discharge and then just some healing from home that includes ice cream and popsicles. It makes me grateful. I will keep you all updated on the tonsillectomy twins journey! I am hoping for lots of rest tomorrow. I am at the point of exhaustion but can't fall asleep, don't you hate that?

Sexy, Sassy and Sixty

We threw my mother in law a surprise 60th birthday party this past weekend! It was SO much fun, she was so excited and so surprised it was so fun to watch her feel like a princess! She has some amazing women friends in her life that have been friends with her for over 20 years and that is so awesome! We had a great time and lots of laughs. She got some great gifts, we ate great food and celebrated a great women who has touched so many lives!

Kathy looking like she has died and gone to heaven over the perfect cardigan :)

So surprised and emotional! Love it, we knew she would cry! :)

Kathy (mil), Tricia (sil) and me, they have been there so much for Tex and I and we are SO grateful for their unconditional love and continous support!

All of the amazing women with the birthday princess! This pic is such a keeper, I just love it! I know Kathy will have many pages to fill in her scrapbook! We love you Mamaw!

Deep Thoughts

We went to the ENT today and the kiddos are scheduled for their surgeries this Tuesday. They are both getting their adenoids removed, tonsils removed and tubes in their ears. I have to admit, I am scared, overwhelmed, nervous and relieved that after we make it thru this they will feel SO much better!

I have had some amazing "God Moments" lately and I have found myself surrounded with a new support group that I am both blessed with and uncomfortable with. For so long I have thought I could tackle everything on my own and I am learning each day that it is OK to ask for help, something that doesn't come very easily for me AT ALL!

I am also starting back to work full time in 2 weeks and that scares me and feels me with guilt that comes with being a mom. The past couple of weeks have sometimes felt suffocating, my anxiety has been heightened and I find myself in my head a lot of days trying to "plan" out each step and I have to rely on God and know that if I ask him HE will take care of me and my family.

I do realize that tonsils and going back to work full time are a walk in the park compared to stories I hear on a daily basis and for that I am so very grateful, but it is still hard and that is ok. I don't have to be a rock all of the time and when I crumble (like I did today) it is OK!!

Please say a prayer for the kiddos and Tex and I that they do ok with the surgeries and that we have the strength to be the best caretakers that we can :)

Blessed!

I am so blessed that I got to stare at this in the morning and relax on a beautiful lake!

I am so blessed that I stayed up till 2 am laughing with these gals!

I am so blessed that Erin came into my life 2 years ago at the exact time I needed her!

I am so blessed to try new things even though I look scared to death! haha!! I really was having fun!

I feel so blessed to have met so many great friends!

What an awesome weekened, I never knew I would  know friends like this....

Deep Breathes....

These past couple of weeks have been long. My mind is racing at 100 mph about the 1001 things I think need to get done right now and I don't have the time or the energy to do them! I keep reminding myself that I am blessed beyond measure and that the "obstacles" we are dealing with our just that and this too shall pass but some times it is hard not to feel sorry for myself or get stressed out and have a few mom breakdowns here and there, so I am trying to focus on one day at a time (which seems to be virtually impossible for someone like me?) I am trying not to worry about things I have no control over today and just doing tasks that can be completed in the present moment. I also heard from a very wise women not to make any decisions or even think very much at night (ha!) so when the sun goes down I don't make any important decisions and just try and pray.

 

As of right now I have these two that currently need their tonsils taken out!!! Yes, both of them at the same time (sob, sob, sob!!) We are set to see the ENT next Wednesday and tentatively set for surgery August 10th. Ann Mason will get a tonsillectomy and tubes and Palmer will get a tonsillectomy as well! I am scared to death but I know if we can push thru it will be SO much better! We have had 15 cases of strep and 9 double ear infections between the two since October!!! Please say a little prayer for their surgery, recovery and my sanity. I realize every day that if this is the "worst" thing medically that we must endure we are in pretty great shape but it will still be hard to see my babies in pain.

On a much lighter and fun note Momma gets a "Get Out of the House Free Night!!" haha!!! I have been blessed to have met the most amazing girls this past year and I was asked to go with 8 girls on a house boat this weekend! I am leaving tomorrow morning and will come back Saturday night. I have packed tons of snacks and magazines and still don't know if I will remember how to just sit somewhere and not do a darn thing!

This is what I will be waking up to Saturday morning! It is a no-makeup, no dress up, no fuss kind of weekend! Lots of food, fun and catch phrase!!! I am so thankful to have a husband who is such an amazing dad and encourages me to take some time for myself cause at this point...this will be the best medicine for me!

I hope to have lots of pics from the weekend! I will keep everyone updated on the "tonsil" twins and our journey!